Year 4 Week 37-38 and Liberation: May 12-June 9, 2019

MFA Training COMPLETED

Can you believe it? I graduated from Juilliard. I can't even believe I can put those words together. I. GRADUATED. FROM. JUILLIARD. I mean, a little over five years ago those words did not even cross my mind. It feels unreal and yet, it is.

I wrote something the morning after the commencement. I meant to post it on my blog but after reading it I realised that I'm not ready to post it.

Photo by Melissa Crucillo

So this is going to be a lot shorter than what I initially meant it to be. I'll simply post more pictures instead.

All photos by Melissa Crucillo

REST.

There are a couple of logistical things that I've been waiting on for a couple of weeks now. While it is true that it is giving me anxiety, it is also giving me permission to take a vacation. It's been so great to be out of school after four years. I've been taking care of my mind, body and spirit and allowing myself to do things that bring me joy, pleasure and tranquility. Finally I have time to listen to podcasts, read books, go thrift store shopping, visit The Met again, or stare into space with my roommate's cat.

Here are some (new) places I've been and stuff I've been listening to or reading. I put an asterisk on my favourites!

• Crazy Rich Asians Trilogy (Yup I finished all three books!)
• ​How to Fight by Thich Nhat Hanh (currently reading)
• *The Cure Thrift Shop, East Village
• AuH2o Thrift Shop, East Village
• Game of Thrones, HBO
• Always Be My Maybe, Netflix
• Brene Brown: The Call to Courage, Netflix
• GLOW, Netflix
• *Fleabag, Amazon Prime (Amazing!)
• Ctrl Alt Delete, "Jameela Jamil: A Revolution Against Shame," Podcast
• The Food Love Podcast, "What if my Recovered Body is Too Big," Podcast
• *Food Psych Podcast with Christy Harris, "Feminism, Marketing, and Breaking Free From Diet Culture with Kelly Diels, Feminist Marketing Consultant", Podcast (my favorite!)
• Where Should We Begin with Esther Perel, "You Can Be Right Or You Can Be Married," Podcast
• Love Stories with Dolly Alderton: Guest Matt Haig, Podcast
• Project Pleasure, "Body Image and Masturbation," Podcast

Also, I highly recommend Kelly Diel's article, "The Wealthy Feminist." I've been curious to reinvestigate my relationship with money and to heal the guilt of having money (I got a fellowship) when I've been conditioned to believe in the idea of the "struggling artist," or the belief that "I am an actor and therefore I should suffer." As I move towards expansion, I would also like to grow financially and to finally be able to support myself and account for my own needs and expenses.

It's going to be interesting to see how this blog evolves within the coming weeks. I started this blog for the donors of the #GoFundRegina campaign to honor my promise of completing this journey. Now that I've completed it, I'm not quite sure what this blog would be for. I don't know if I'm going to continue writing, or if I'm going to shift the framework of the content. Regardless, I would like to write more and I am hoping that I will be able to share some pretty meaningful content in the coming weeks.